Is it possible to just ever stop wondering and just move on? I have thought about this many times and the answer is sure.. If you are able…LOL I haven’t quite figured that out quite yet, however, I am the happiest I have been in so long. I am loving my life (despite this RSD and all the pain and hell it brings to your life) but I am loving spending the time with my family and friends that I have missed for so many years now. I have realized that NOONE is worth putting yourself 2nd in life. My kids are my pride and joy and in the last few years, they have grown into wonderful, amazing MEN. I am so proud of them and the Choices they have made. Even as tough as times are/ have been, the 3 of us have remained intact and supported each other through every inch of our lives. These 2 boys of mine have brought me tears and the same time soo much happiness. One of these days, I will be able to just return to them half of the happiness they have given to me.
We have been through many times of turmoil, hardships, life’s hard lessons but in the end.. We have won! I couldn’t ask for anything more as far as that goes. They truly adore each other and of course the special little lady that was introduced in our lives 6 years ago, whom they fell in love with and treated as if she was one of our own. We miss her terribly and just hope that in time she will truly understand what we have all been through. We love her and always will, she has been a huge part of our lives and we were so blessed with her presence.
As you go through life it’s pretty evident that things happen for a reason, and that things aren’t meant to be, or just don’t belong. We take each and everyday with stride and thank our lucky stars that we have been blessed into the family we have been. Our family has been totally amazing to all of us.
I will continue to do my best with my boys, and just hope that they continue on the right path. They both have huge ambitions, intentions, and set their sights high. I know that each one of them will both succeed in the life path they choose to take, and I will be right there rooting them on along the way.
I Love you Michael, Brayden and Katie. You have my heart and soul and I’m so proud of each one of you!!!